Currently Listening Begin to Hope By Regina Spektor Samson see related

Signed up for my classes :)

I actually can't wait til college starts

I think I'm finally ready for something new...

I don't know who i am anymore...

scary thought... The road to self discovery is unpredicatable to say the least and all i've discovered is i dont know who i am and what i do know, i dont like. With this road you have to break out of your shell, test the waters, and find the real you. And i've broken out, and its left me, well broken. I lost my identity, my morals, what i knew to be true about me. I tried to break away from my force fed religion, morals, and standards and i suceeded. I've also suceeded in making myself feel so completely worthless and alone. If you had asked me last year what i wanted, my standards, who i wanted, and where i was going, i could tell you right on the spot. but if you asked me now, i wouldn't have a clue. I spent so much time this year trying to change myself to what people would want, trying to better myself to fit into society, that i feel like ive lost myself. I am a case of missing identity, with no leads and no where to go. When the pieces are broken, where do you even begin to put them back together?

We're almost done.

And I finally feel ready to be done.

Prom, New York, Graduation...

So close

Currently Listening Stripped By Christina Aguilera Get Mine, Get Yours see related

You’re a fake

And the sad thing is, is that you know it

You pretend to be something that you’re not

Hoping that you’re fake confidence and charm will fool everyone else around you,

Till the point where you might actually fool yourself

Friendship is something of convenience

Not something of value

When it comes to you, it’s a one way rode

With all paths leading back to you

It’s all about you, there’s no time for others

Why have one face when you can have two?

Quality has never been your style,

To you its quantity

Backstabbing is a game that you know very well

And have become an excellent player at

Responsibility is something that you have yet to master

But pretend to own

If something doesn’t effect you,

You cast it aside

Ignoring the repercussions that it may have on another person

Your tongue is sharp

But your common sense is weak

You have a great delivery,

But your lines are foolish

Maybe people won’t notice

You deny you’ve changed

Who wouldn’t?

But your audience doesn’t believe the lies you tell them anymore

Their catching on to your act

And that scares you

So you go on with this lovely facade

Hoping that not sooner but later you can give it up

Though you’re nothing but an empty package

You fill yourself with promises of this will be better or that you can be better

Just remember the only person you fooled is yourself

-Me